February

There is something about February that just feels off. I can’t put my finger on it, but the month just feels mean. Petty. Spiteful. It’s stupid, I understand this, and yet, I feel it just the same.

Work has been incredibly busy. I cannot believe the amount of work that’s been coming in and the expected due dates. What’s that? You need 90 pages of website content? But you don’t yet have the wireframes to give me? Or the general hierarchy or navigation? Or even a rough idea of how you want the site to work? And you need it in 8 days? NO. That’s like telling me to build an airplane while we’re already in the air. Luckily, my boss has been completely awesome by serving as the metaphorical dragon at the gate, so I have been able to shovel off some of those stress projects. (They’ll probably be assigned to Future Shauna, but I cannot allow myself to think about that.)

Speaking of shoveling, it has snowed here five days in a row. Not a lot, but enough to shovel. Jason has done most of it because he gets home before I do (despite working 10-hour days), but this morning I offered to do it before work so he didn’t have to deal with it last night. And this morning, just like every other time I shovel, I reach that point where I just feel the futility of it all. Maybe it’s the sickly blue light, maybe it’s the ice ruts my shovel always gets caught on that results in a shovelful of snow spraying everywhere, or maybe it’s the soggy scarf wrapped wetly across my face. Regardless, I always end up totally fatigued, mentally and physically: I shoveled, but what does it matter? It’s going to snow again and all of this will have been for nothing. What is the point?!? 

See? February strikes again.

Completely unrelated, our volleyball team is this ragtag group of women out to have fun, and our tallest player is maybe 5’9. But yet we always seem to play super-serious, super-competitive teams consisting of 4 or 5 giantesses. Last night, our group was warming up on our side of the net when a player from the other team decided to practice her serves. Three times she nearly hit one of us and then got mad when we wouldn’t roll her ball back to her, leaving it instead to languish in a dusty corner. Sorry we’re not going to hand your ball back to you so you can nearly bean one of us, OK? Don’t effing serve the ball when there’s a group of people standing right there! Jesus. Also on her team was an Amazon woman (literally, every time this creature spiked the ball, she’d utter a primal scream like a cavewoman) who got on my nerves instantly. Luckily, despite being a foot taller than everyone else, she wasn’t that good. Most of the time, she’d hit the ball into the net or out of bounds, and in one deliciously awesome moment that I took way too much pleasure in, she got blocked by one of my teammates. But during those rare instances when she got in a good hit, that yelling instantly made me hate her. Look, I’m all about making good plays, you know? In fact, my main goal when playing volleyball is to annoy the hell out of the other team. But only because of my good play, not because I celebrated like an annoying douchebag. So when the time came to shake hands after the game, instead of saying, “good game,” like I do to every other person, I slapped Amazon’s hand and said nothing. Just my little passive-aggressive way of saying, “Eff you.” And yes, it was petty, and yes, I know the woman had no idea what I was thinking, but I did it.

I’ll blame February.

7 thoughts on “February

  1. Oh, winter. I can deal with February, but only because both A. and I celebrate our birthdays in the month.

    March, however, slowly eats away at my will to live. I ***** hate March.

    I need to find a volleyball team! I love playing volleyball, and haven’t played on a team in probably four years. I am going to look into RIGHT NOW. Before March gets here.

  2. Is there a pickle and dime in the masthead? Because if there is I don’t see it and if there isn’t WHY NOT??

  3. @Nik-Nak,
    Sorry, I no longer have the time to create mastheads. I can barely find the time to post! :-)

  4. If you think the 1st five days of February were a challenge with the snow (and they were!), when you go to sleep Saturday night you better stay sleeping until Tuesday morning :) Sounds like the weather could be a challenge! We’ve had that feeling too…why bother shoveling when more is on the way :(

  5. I’m wondering if maybe you’ve addressed this before, but why oh why don’t you guys have a snow blower? Which isn’t to say that you wouldn’t end up shoveling anyway, since Ed routinely forgets to put gas in ours, but it seems like a good investment in snowy MN.

  6. I hate February. There’s no hope that winter is ever going to end and the gray skies are going to be here forever. I hate it.

  7. @saly,

    We have a snowblower. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. Currently it’s missing a shear bolt. But we also shovel off our back patio and deck and make trails for Shorty in the yard, and you can’t use the snowblower for that, anyway. :(